conniec.
10-20-2009, 05:00 PM
its been a week today that i lost my dear holly; she was a beautiful tabby that first entered my life at christmas of 1991, yes she was 18 years old...i have just finally accepted that she was old and very sick and with that i have accepted her fate...some of you know me from another thread i started back in july...perhaps her time was sooner than last week, but i selfishly couldnt let her go...what would i do without her...i held her close to me at the vet and she was gone in an instant...i am so thankful i listened to my mom and held her close to my heart; i wanted her to feel me and i know i was there at the end like i had been for the past 18 years....oh yes, she was a very spoiled kitty indeed...she had the most beautiful life no doubt, its just that my heart is broken now and i miss her terribly, so terribly that i feel like i will just never get over this...but i know time is the great healer...and i know that it was her time, and i will face this yet again some other day in my life, but somehow she was different, we all have that special animal in our life times...we love them all but some just tug a little harder at our heart strings. just when i think i am begining to feel better, i feel that gut wrenching, sucker punch to the gut feeling, the oh my god, i cant believe she's gone...i love you holly, you are my kitkat4ever...thank you god for letting me have this beautiful little soul for so long, it was a priveledge....karin.