Diary of a Cancer Patient Pt. 2

[tiffers]

...well, he has been okay. He's only swatted at me twice, but I think he is getting protective of his crate. He doesn't understand the litter box concept, but he will eat in front of me, so that's good. He'll also allow me to hold him, as long as my movements are slow. I think he likes having a lap, and chin scratches and ear rubs, but I don't think he wants me to know it.

Today, we did a blood smear. A blood smear is taking the blood and looking at it directly under a microscope after staining. It would seem that his blood is leaning more towards raging infection than bone marrow cancer. But, at the same time...he may also have Leukemia in his bone marrow, and it isn't being picked up by the FIV/Feleuk Test.

We gave him more injections and some more SubQ fluids. I also bought him a week's worth of canned Wellness Core, as I don't think he's drinking the water that's been put out for him. Hopefull, with the SubQ fluids and the canned food, he'll get some moisture under his belt and some weight back on him.

He did gain 2oz over the weekend.

A question, though...if I feel like he is getting 'protective' of his crate, should I not provide it to him anymore? Only for transport? Or, should I just remove the top so it is like a bed for the night and during the day? What are your thoughts?

Does a cat work the same way as a dog? For instance, if I were to give him my shirt from the day to have overnight, do you think that would make any difference?

I feel like he trusts me. If I get him into my lap and pet him for a while, he will rest his head on my leg/arm and relax. Any other tips/tricks to gain more trust from him?

(PICTURES COMING IN LIKE ONE MINUTE!)

[Bellasmommy]

Have you named him?

[tiffers]

Have you named him?

No. I am still open to suggestions. :)

[tiffers]

Saturday night, I put food out for him as soon as I felt the anesthesia had worn off enough. He wouldn't come out of the crate as long as I was in the bathroom...so, I left and looked under the door.

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I accidentally made a noise, and he quickly retreated back to his crate.

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Chica helped watch the kitty under the door, too.

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[tiffers]

Tonight, he and I spent a long time in the bathroom. I managed to get him into my lap, and he seemed perfectly content there. No purrs, but I could see his muscles (or lack thereof) relax. I think he was happy with the warmth...

I get growled at a lot, and I've only been swatted twice...and, I get a few hisses. But, I think he's coming around. Once I have him, he's okay...it's getting him out of the crate that's the problem.

Here he's resting his head on my arm...

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Here you can see his hair loss...and VERY dehydrated skin.

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Have you ever felt a pineapple? That's what it feels like petting this kitty. He's literally a bag of bones.

I am holding his spine between my fingers.

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I found that if I turned the flash off, you could see how his bones protrude better. Below is his shoulder blades and spine.

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[tiffers]

...sitting in my lap.

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Plenty of opportunities to leave my lap, and he never did.

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I think his face is glued in this expression...

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This kitty's seen lots of troubles...

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...what all kitties really want. A nice warm lap to sleep in.

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[Macawpower58]

I don't think it's possessiveness your seeing Tiff. From the little I know of cats, and especially sick, frightened ones, he's viewing the crate as his safe place. Being pulled from it is like being dragged from a safe den. That crate may be the only safe spot he's been for a long, long time. It's scary leaving it, even though you have no ill intentions towards him. He may be developing a slight phobia about leaving it.

[tiffers]

I thought he might be asleep, but he blinked because of the flash. :: sigh ::

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The farther out I moved my arms and legs, he would move his head to where it was resting on me. He never did leave my lap.

Here he is next to my shoe (female size 7), and you can REALLY see his bony little hips.

http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd182/tdyannd/ORPHAN%20FOSTERS/IMG_7493.jpg

...content.

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The 'I hate the world' look he has on his face all the time.

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Poor thing going back to his crate...

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[tiffers]

From the little I know of cats, and especially sick, frightened ones, he's viewing the crate as his safe place.

I know it's his safe place. If he is out and running around when you're trying to get into the bathroom, he bolts for the crate. I don't mind him feeling safe in it...but, it is now to the point where he is aggressive in his crate. I want to nip that in the bud before it escalates.

Tonight, I pulled him from the crate (I have to pull the towel he sits on and wrap it around him...I can't just get him out.) and held him in my lap for a good 10-15 minutes with a fresh can of wet food sitting in front of us. He was content in my lap.

I've not tried coaxing him out with food...but, since I need him to eat as much as he wants...working for his food is not what I want from him. His health is a tad more important than his behavior at this point.

But, I need to figure something out. I want him to have a place where he feels safe...but, I don't like his aggression while in his crate. He's much braver in there...that's for sure.

[tiffers]

Have you named him?

Charles has since voted naming him 'Neosporin' because that makes everything better. :p

[Macawpower58]

Tiff, have you a raised cat pole and bed? That might be something to switch the crate for. High is good, and a little bed to curl up in.

[That_girl]

lol, I like that. You could call him Neo. Sure looks like he's ready for a "new" start.

[LadyPirate]

He is going to be a gorgeous cat when all healed! I wouldn't know what to tell you about the bed thing. Grr uses her carrier as her safe place, but she is a healthy cat and escapes there when it gets too noisy around the house. This is the only safe place this cat has known for a long time so it's 2 entirely different situations.You could try taking the top off for a bit and seeing how he does. I'm glad he is eating at least and you can bet on one thing. This will be YOUR cat from now on whether you really want it to be or not. You're the one who bathed him fed him and showed him that all humans are not bad. He will love you forever.

[special]

I can't read his threads without sobbing. Put a cardboard Box Fort next to his crate and use the same towels and blankets in the box, instead of the crate, to wean him frm the crate. That crate (and your lap) is the only safe place he knows.

I think his name is Moses, as he has survived against all odds.

[Irish_Lass]

God! I will all the sick animals I read about to make a full recovery, but I don't think I've ever wanted one to be ok as much in my life!

[cyclops]

Tiffers, when I brought Buzz here he was a bag of bones. He was just under 7 pounds, and he now weighs in at 13 pounds! I could feel every bone & joint on his body, and he looked mal formed due to lack of muscle mass.

He hid a lot in the first few weeks he was here, but he would come sit on my lap. I want to say it was about a month before I heard him purr. I think it might have been because his body could not produce the sound, KWIM? Too sickly or something.

After a couple of trips to the vet and a few rounds of meds he started to feel better and the purr motor cranked up.

If I get to vote for a name I will go with Esperanza. It is Spanish for "hope".

[dlaura]

He is going to be so handsome when he is all healed up Tiff.

I was going to suggest a cat bed for him to snuggle up in also.

What an awful time he must have had up until this point when you & he met.

Just wanted to thank you again Tiffers for caring for this fellow.

[DoggieVogue]

Thank you for the update. I'm really pulling for this poor kitty. I like Neosporin, by the way. ;)

[cyclops]

I am remembering a stand up routine where the comedian (Eddie Murphy?) tells us how as a child no matter what injury or illness was in their house their father gave them Robitussin. "Got a broken leg? Take some Robitussin!" Maybe you could name him Robitussin and call him Roby for short.

[tiffers]

If I get to vote for a name I will go with Esperanza. It is Spanish for "hope".

It'd have to Esperanzo...he's a boy. :p

Tiff, have you a raised cat pole and bed?
A what?

:p Like a cat tower with a bed? I have the cat tower that Catillac uses, but she likes that one...and I doubt he'd use if it smells of someone else. He isn't too fond of other animals.

You could try taking the top off for a bit and seeing how he does.
Last night, I left the top on. I gave him my scrub top to sleep with, in conjunction with his towels in his crate, hoping that my smell won't be something scary. He still doesn't come out on his own. But, I think I should stop taking him out...and perhaps let him come out on his own when he's ready?

But, then...if I do that, I have to pull him out to give him his injections and such...I don't want 'coming out' to be a bad thing either.

This will be YOUR cat from now on whether you really want it to be or not. You're the one who bathed him fed him and showed him that all humans are not bad. He will love you forever.
I know, and that's what I told Charles last night. I really hadn't thought it through when I decided to take on his guy. Here he is, terrified and thinking I am going to kill him or something...but, he is learning to trust me and I am being patient with him. If he ever does learn to trust and like me, and I feel like he's ready to be homed somewhere...then, I have abandoned him. Perhaps this is why I don't rescue adult cats... :(

Put a cardboard Box Fort next to his crate and use the same towels and blankets in the box, instead of the crate, to wean him frm the crate.

Like, one that is open on top? I don't think he could jump in one...but, I don't want to enclose it completely either, as the roof bit is what makes him swat back and his. If he is in an open area, he is not as 'brave'. If I did a box that I made a small door on the side, and put a nice warm bed in it...he may use it. He really can't stretch out in the crate either.

I think his name is Moses, as he has survived against all odds.

I went through a BUNCH of biblical names, and couldn't pronounce half of them! :p

lol, I like that. You could call him Neo.
Yeah, I told Charles to name my cat. So, he's coming up with all sorts of names, from Sitting Bull and Crazy Horse, then to Odysseus to Neosporin. He came up with Neo first, and I said 'Why?'...and he said because Neosporin makes everything better. :p

I don't think I've ever wanted one to be ok as much in my life!
You know, like I said in the other thread...I am really wanting him to make it, too. More so than my kittens, I'll wager it's because he's had a lifetime of hell, and having made it this far, he deserves a break.

What an awful time he must have had up until this point when you & he met.

I sure would like to know, because then I'd have knowledge as to how to better approach him, you know.

We talked about releasing him back into the same neighborhood he came from because that is the place he is familiar with (if he can't be homed). But, then we decided against it because something in that neighborhood made him very sick...unless someone dumped him after noticing his illness.

[special]

Like, one that is open on top? I don't think he could jump in one...but, I don't want to enclose it completely either, as the roof bit is what makes him swat back and his. If he is in an open area, he is not as 'brave'. If I did a box that I made a small door on the side, and put a nice warm bed in it...he may use it. He really can't stretch out in the crate either.



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on it's side with a flap down. for instance like this:

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[tiffers]

on it's side with a flap down. for instance like this

Oh, okay. I see.

I took the lid off the crate, and he just about had a heart attack. I put him in my lap for a little while, and he calmed down. I am not sure that taking the lid off is a good idea. I may just have to get something bigger...like the box thing.

[Macawpower58]

Special's box is a good idea. You could also cut out the 'floor' of a box, and place it over his 'topless' crate, with a entrance area cut into the side. That way he'd still be in the familiar crate bottom, and have the security of something over top of him. When it comes time to medicate or pick him up, just pick the box up and move it.

[Bellasmommy]

Man, I wish that while I was in Dallas I could have brought him home.. My cat, Mandy, hasn't ever returned home. She was an outdoor cat, and liked to roam so I let her do what made her happy. I'm thinking someone took her in, because every great once in a while I see her play in the field.


For some reason, the pictures of him make me cry. I really wish he was ready and I was in Texas still, I would have scooped him up and brought him home.. :(

[RoxyGirl]

poor lil dude, I really hope he makes it.

Tiffers, you are an angel. You always give so much to every animal that comes your way, even if you know that they have a slim chance of making it, because you want them to know love before they go. No animal should ever have to go without knowing love, and feeling unwanted, but you change that Tiffers, and you make sure that they do know how it feels to have someone care for you and love you.

I have great respect for you Tiffers, and for what you do every single day. I want to thank you for loving and caring for all the animals who, if you weren't there, may never know what it is to be loved.

Thank you for doing such a great job Tiffers, you really are an angel and a hero.

[pipsie71]

I'm so glad you are making progress with the little love and that at last he has somewhere safe and warm bless his heart. Thanks for what you're doing it is a wonderful thing, if only all the poor animals in the world could land up with someone like you, Pip

[Wiztherewoz]

I completely love him, he's just so beautiful. All my fingers are (metaphorically) crossed hoping for him to pull through.

The pictures of him eating (and then diving for sanctuary) make me really super hopeful! And the one of Chica looking under the door with you!! Priceless! She's an angel from heaven that dog, looking out for all the poor waifs and strays. :) (Takes after her momma ;))

[e1beth1]

I would agree with Special regarding giving him a large box flipped it's side, perhaps even without the flap hanging over to replace the crate. This will give him a good comfort space to hide in but leave it much easier for you to get him out, most importantly without standing over top of him. I'm willing to bet from your pictures and behavior that he'll warm up to you more and more thoughout the week. I believe that if he was truely terrified of you would not be able to handle him at all. Poor little guy, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for him.

[tiffers]

I am wondering if I should just leave him in his happy crate and let him warm up to me on his own. I do talk to him every time I go in the bathroom...he hisses and growls sometimes, sometimes nothing, and sometimes he swats at the side of the box.

When it comes time for medicine, I wonder if keeping him in the crate, and just removing the top and then putting it back when we're done...?

He definitely doesn't like when I am 'taller' than him, he is quite a bit more aggressive then, so whenever I mess with him...I have to be on his level, which is usually me laying down with him. Then, once I have him...I can sit up...

...he is still eating well, and did use the litter box last night. So, that's good. Tomorrow, (I called in sick today...) is more injections and SubQ fluids.

[Llamalady]

You could name him Windex. That's what fixes everything in the movie "Big Fat Greek Wedding". ;)

[MelissaPengu]

Maybe, you should simply call him "Hope"?
I like that name :)

[Llamalady]

Maybe call him Boxer?

From the Boxer by Simon and Garfunkel?:

'In the clearing stands a boxer, and a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders of every glove that laid him down or cut him
til he cried out in his anger and his shame
"I am leaving! I am leaving!" but the fighter still remains
Yes he still remains.'

[tiffers]

I borrowed an XL dog crate from the doctor a few days ago; big enough for her dalmatian to be crated in when he was still alive. It's a great size. I can fit his two food bowls, his water bowl, litter pan, and he still has room to walk around (though he rarely moves).

For the first night in the large crate, he didn't eat. The following morning, he didn't eat either...I gave him some on my finger, and he ate. So, a few hours later...he walked to his food dish and ate the rest.

He had gained a pound by Wednesday. I was so excited...he was also getting grumpier, I felt like it was because he was feeling better. I also noticed how he was always hot. His tongue was still white, and just all around...really hadn't changed.

Today, we opted to recheck his bloodwork instead of waiting till tomorrow. We also discussed that he must be an old cat going by a few different factors, instead of being the 3-4 year old cat we originally thought. So, now...we're thinking 10+.

The bloodwork really didn't change. Some things were more elevated and some were decreased, but overall...a dead cat. We discussed a few more options and ultimately settled on Bone Marrow Cancer with secondary Autoimmune. So, not only does the poor fellow have cancer, but his own body is trying to kill him.

She and I decided that euthanasia was best for the little fellow...and I'm really, really upset by it. I just wish he would of had FIV or Kidney Failure...something easy. A definite reason to put him down...

I think what upset me the most was that he did learn to trust me, and he would sleep in my lap...he would relax there. I told myself that I would be stuck with him until he died. Why? Because I would be no better than the a-holes who dumped in the first place if I rehomed him after he was well. He was my cat...for 6 days.

I shouldn't be so upset...he's so much better off, and I question if I was prolonging his suffering...but, they say cancer and autoimmune don't hurt...I just hope that's true.

The little turd never did purr...but, he did fall asleep in my lap and that's good enough.

This is far worse than ANY kitten I've ever lost...

[dlaura]

Tiffers he was your cat for 6 days and knew love, snuggling and went peacefully.

Thank you for carin for him.

[special]

I'm sorry Tiffany. Again, because of you a little innocent soul knew love before eternal peace. Did you ever give him a name, even in just your thoughts? I know you are broken hearted. But he isn't. Because of you.
xo

[tiffers]

Tiffers he was your cat for 6 days and knew love, snuggling and went peacefully.
When we took him out to draw blood, he was mean. He was hissing and spitting and swatting at me...we got blood and put him back in his crate.

When I took him out for the euthanasia...I think he knew. He hissed at me, but once he was in my lap...he was fine. I think he was thankful for it.

That's what really upsets me...I feel like I should of done it on day one...but we didn't if those results were true or not. ...it just sucks.

Did you ever give him a name, even in just your thoughts?

...from the beginning, I always called him 'Muscles'. :o I didn't really 'make' that his name, but...I guess now it was.

We're going to bury him tomorrow...

[e1beth1]

You gave him a chance to know kindness before death, possibly the most he's ever known. I think you did a good thing by giving him a chance and then you made the decision when you knew for certain things were unchangable. You also gave him a kind, quick end otherwise he would have likely had a long miserable one.

[Wiztherewoz]

Thank you so much for doing everything that you could for him. Don't feel sorry for not having him put down straight away; you believed that he deserved a chance (which he did), and you'd have probably always questioned yourself had you not given him that chance.
Now you can let him go knowing that you didn't just give him up as a lost cause, like everyone else in his life apparently did.

Some people may wonder if it was worth it, putting yourself through all this pain for one little cat that was always going to die whatever happened; but to that little cat it meant everything in the world. You gave him so much, and I'm sure he was grateful to you for being the only person to give him anything that ever lasted..
I hope the sadness that he caused you will never stop you helping another that comes across your path as in need of your kind of help as this guy was. I have faith that it won't. (Coz you're a sucker for a sad face. :))


RIP, you lovely little cat. I'm sorry you didn't get the happy ending you so sorely deserved, but at least now you're finally at peace, and you'll never have to hurt again. x


(Thanks for sharing him with us, Tiff. x)

[Llamalady]

Aw crap I'm crying again. I'm sorry Tiffers you had to go through this. I actually know almost exactly what you're going through. And you can have a cat 6 days or 16 years and if they're in your heart, they're in your heart and you still want to do right by them.

I'll tell you what Father Mike told me - a dear friend of mine. It is not selfish to keep them for a little while longer. They need comfort and closure just as much you do, even if you are planning on making the tough decision to let them go. Animals are a comfort and a solace and they deserve our comfort and solace, as much as we can give. And that in most instances because they are such emotional creatures, that they would rather have our comfort and solace than medical care, if it has come to that far of a point.

[Irish_Lass]

This thread has really touched me. :( I knew the odds were set against "Muscles" from the beginning, but deep down I thought he'd be the miracle kitty, the 1 that beat the odds and surprised everybody.

You were his angel Tiff. He learned about being loved & cared for. He learned that there was good in the world - and that's what you wanted to achieve in the beginning, if nothing else. You gave him that final kindness too, you did everything in your power for him. Now that he's running around at Rainbow Bridge, its you he's thinking of, nobody else. You should be proud of yourself; I've only known you for a few months & I'm immensely proud of you. xxx

[pipsie71]

Between them, Wiz and Lisa have said all the things that I'd like to say to you Tiffers, so I'll just add that you have all my sympathies for how you're feeling and I'd like to send you a hug too, cos you're super special, Pip xxx

[Macawpower58]

Poor old cat. I wonder if he ever had a happy home? Did he have good memories to weigh against his late bad ones? Was he once someone's pride and joy?

I hope so. Thanks Tiff for giving him a peaceful and dignified ending. It's good to know he didn't die under a bush, unwanted and alone.

[Kittybits]

I really shouldn't read sad threads while I'm at work because I'm on the verge of tears. But you did such a wonderful thing and you're such a great person for doing all that you could do for him. He knows you cared and in the end, despite your own heartbreak, it was worth it. Thank you for helping him.

[cyclops]

Tiffers you are my hero. (hugs)

[squashynose]

Tiff I'm so sorry. But to know that he had a home for the last few days, and had someone who cared enough about him to try to help, even just holding him, showing him that we're not all bad... It's worth the pain to know that he knew love at the end.

Thanks Tiff :)

[kyukidojen]

Tiffers:

I'm sorry. It is so very hard taking in older cats like that. My first ever "only mine" cat was 14 when I got him. Had him for 3 years before he needed to be put to sleep.

The other, we had just barely a year.

That last little bit with Muscles? The part where he settled in to your lap and was at peace? That's why you did what you did. That was him saying to you that in six short days, you'd proven trust worthy. That was him saying that he knew he was safe. That he knew you would do the best thing for him. Even if it broke your heart.

And I am seriously crying right now. For you. For him. For all of the animals who never, ever get to say that to a human. I look at my cats when I tell them they are being very naughty (like when the appeal of burying their claws in the screen is too much), and they look back at me with a look that says "yeah, right. You're not going to do a single solitary thing about this." And that gets me. That is the way a cat SHOULD be. WIthout fear.

You gave Muscles the best final gift you could. A chance to let go of fear and rest in the security of knowing you were there, taking care of him. A chance to finally not have to fight.

I have to stop now. I'm making myself cry.

THank you.

[DoggieVogue]

That last little bit with Muscles? The part where he settled in to your lap and was at peace? That's why you did what you did. That was him saying to you that in six short days, you'd proven trust worthy. That was him saying that he knew he was safe. That he knew you would do the best thing for him. Even if it broke your heart.

That was very well put. Tiffers, I am so sorry that you lost him, but you did what was best for him and atleast he knew love and comfort before he went. That was your intentions and you suceeded wonderfully. He may not have purred, be he knew contentment and that is just as good. This story has really touched me, and thought it didn't have the ending that we all were hoping for, I'm glad that you shared it.

[tiffers]

So, I just have to say that it's thread's like these that make my keep posting about my orphans...not because I like to make people cry, but because I love the support. I have no one to take my frustrations out with...no one to cry with...it's nice to have all of you, and really...you all motivate me to keep doing it.

I still question this guy...I know deep down I did the right thing...but, darn it...it sucks.

These were taken on his last day...

http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd182/tdyannd/ORPHAN%20FOSTERS/IMG_7525.jpg

http://i227.photobucket.com/albums/dd182/tdyannd/ORPHAN%20FOSTERS/IMG_7530.jpg

[special]

You can tell he was meant to be a Stunning Cat. Just think how sleek and furry and gorgeous he is now, Tiffany, waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. Man what a party that's going to be, eh? (not that we want it to happen any time soon, but you know what I mean, I hope!)

[tiffers]

Yes, there will be so many babies waiting for me there...I'm scared to go. I wonder if they'll share the lap that was once solely their's?! :eek:

[squashynose]

Tiff, you did do the right thing. He looks... Worn out, in those photos, he was ready to go :( And he knew love before he went, you did the bestest thing for him.

[Bellasmommy]

Tiffers, I hope you don't mind. I had someone edit the photos of him just so we can remember him as what he is now. If you have any problems with it I will take them off, I just thought it'd be nice.

Before:
http://i382.photobucket.com/albums/oo265/kimberdav2009/IMG_7462.jpg
After:
http://i382.photobucket.com/albums/oo265/kimberdav2009/deee.jpg
Before:
http://i382.photobucket.com/albums/oo265/kimberdav2009/IMG_7525.jpg

[Bellasmommy]

After:
http://i382.photobucket.com/albums/oo265/kimberdav2009/sittt.jpg

Rest in peace little buddy.