Sock-M is Now My Angel

[PatchO'Pits]

CH Patch O’ T Wht Rck-M Sock-M Star OFAca, OFApa

4-26-04 to 9-19-06

My Beautiful Itty Bitty Girl

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She loved going for on adventures

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I knew her when she was just the sperm and egg as she was from an artificial insemination breeding. Silly me, I talked to the sperm telling it to make beautiful, happy, healthy puppies and that I loved it. I continued to talk to her mama Starlit’s belly as the little aliens as I called them grew up inside. She was the last pup born right in my family room, and came out with no sack or umbilical cord attached like a little rocket. Sock-M was the pick pup and smart as a whip. She had an injury very young and had to have several months of Physical therapy to recover. She earned her Ch title when she was a little over a year old.Then my world came crashing down when she was diagnosed with cancer on July 17th. I prayed for a miracle everyday and held out hope she’d be OK.

[PatchO'Pits]

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Sock-M left me for Heaven's Rainbow Bridge Tuesday night. She has ALWAYS been a true gift from God, My Angel on Earth. She taught me so much about love and life while bringing me closer to family & friends. I am so blessed to have had her in my life and still in my heart.


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Now I’m truly heartbroken. Things will never be the same. It was a rough end for her. I wish I could have given her a peaceful one. I was alone and afraid, and honestly didn't know what to do. She had the heart to fight the cancer and death until her very last breath. As she looked into my eyes and breathed for the last time I know she didn’t want to leave me. I told her it was Ok to go and that she’d be in a good place and have no more pain even though I wanted her so badly to stay. Sock-M was always a determined, strong pup, a perfect example of what the breed’s temperament should be. She loved everyone she met especially kids.

[PatchO'Pits]

She enjoyed rides in the car, agility especially the tunnels, playing with her ball, tug, doing zooomies and going for walks. She had such a zest for life. My Energizer Bunny in an APBT suit http://i10.tinypic.com/47jgprk.jpg


I'm so thankful that I had her in my life even if it was for such a short time. I wish I could have given her more comfort. I wish I had more strength for her. There were so many things left unfinished. Sock-M would have tested to be a therapy dog and gotten her CGC I have no doubt. We planned to continue training for agility and obedience along with her show career. All that seems so unimportant now though, and all I want is just to be able to hold her in my arms again, see her play and be happy. I'm sure Sock-M is sending you and I all BIG Pit Bull smiles and wiggle butt dances from Heaven because that is just the kind of dog Sock-M is... I think that through her love, pictures and silly ways touched both those who knew her and even people she didn't have the chance to meet. I wish you all could have known her as I did… http://i10.tinypic.com/2nsyohw.jpg

[PatchO'Pits]

Hugs and Prayers for all those fighting the battle against cancer.

Enjoy each day and let beauty surround you. http://i10.tinypic.com/4h32sys.jpg

Take time out to lay in the grass and soak up the sun


You are My Best friend and Baby. I'll keep the good memories alive and the smiles you gave to me
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[PatchO'Pits]

Hold your pups close!!
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***Dear Sock-M,
Mommy will come see you again my Beautiful Baby. Your pain is gone. Go find Grandma (My Mom) she will take care of you until I come and will introduce you to our human and fur family who are already there. My Bella Bella, God needed a special angel for a job in heaven and he chose you. I miss you so much there are no words to even express how much. Hugs and kisses for you my itty bitty belly button girl. I know you are running through agility tunnels and playing ball and tug happily & pain free now like the energizer bunny you were on earth. I wish I could have had more time with you. I can't stop feeling that I didn't do enough. I hope you know I would do anything for you. I tried so hard to make you better and save you. Please know I didn’t want you to go and I love you so much. You are forever with me in my heart, I feel you with me, and I will never ever forget all the good times and love we shared. Thank you!!!!!!! Remember me and that I am with you too. Let me know somehow that you are safe. I will find you someday again. It is not good-bye my angel but see you later. Love knows no boundaries, not time, space nor death and nothing can take it away from us.

All My Love, Mommy
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You will not be forgotten.

P.S. Irwin, Starlit, Samurai, Patcheeno, Smootch, Steel, Boa, Babie Girl and yes even Apache send all their love too. They look for you around the house still as do I. The neighbors don’t all know yet and still come out to play with you when I walk the others

[Lehi]

That's a very nice tribute you gave your little girl. Made me cry though darn it!

[PatchO'Pits]

Thanks for reading it

Smile for my Sock-M

I miss her so very much

[NewfieGrl]

Wow, that was just wonderful. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes after reading that. How beautiful!
Michele
owned by 2 newfies, a cocker spaniel and 3 cats.

[paws4prayer]

What a beautiful tribute, thank you for sharing that with all of us...your words are light in the darkness to everyone who has, or ever will, lose a beloved animal companion in expected or unexpected ways. Thank you for showing us how to move through those dark places with grace, hope, unselfishness,and dignity. Sock-M was equally blessed to have you in her life.

My thoughts, prayers, and condolences are with you -- and yes, I will offer up a smile for Sock-M -- she's STILL as beautiful as those pictures show -- and even moreso now, radiant in God's love.

Peace to you,

[dlaura]

What a wonderful tribute to Sock-M Therese. I'm sure that where ever she is now - she is free from pain and running around like a puppy again. What beautiful pictures and beautiful memories you have of her. Sock-M will live on in your heart forever.

[Evey]

I didn't cry when I lost Bailey, or when my mother passed. But I sure am crying now. ( If my husband finds out I will never hear the end of it.) That was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful creature.

[rmarix]

So sorry for your loss. From your tribute, we can see how loved Sock-M was. It's a shame - she was so young. That's what always hurt me the most when I was around ill animals, they are so innocent that it's hard to see them in pain. Seems like Sock-M had an amazing life and a very loving family. Take care and thanks for sharing the photos.

[PatchO'Pits]

Thank you all so much. I'm sure she is send you kisses from Heaven and big pit bull smiles like she always did when she was here

[rstowe]

Therese,

Sorry again for your loss. What a lovely tribute! Don't worry about wondering if you did everything you could; from your other thread we can tell you did.

Wishing you the best.

[swtnikki]

I'm sorry for your loss. That was a beautiful tribute, but I have tears in my eyes now. I sent a smile up for Sock-M, & I know she's happy & healthy at the Rainbow Bridge.

[ANNSMD]

Your pictures are just wonderful, What wonderful memories that you must have of the time the two of you had together. I sit and cry like a baby looking at the pictures and reading your tribute. It's easy to see the bond the two of you had. May God bless you and the new puppies that are on the way, and mom and dad too. Ann

[Carissa]

Im sorry that she left this soon, I didnt/ couldnt read the whole, thing, I started crying then I couldnt see any more :-( but I am sorry. Me and lilliana (my pit) send pitbull kisses you and Sock-M's Way...

[PatchO'Pits]

I wish I could have her in my arms right now... it is very hard

Sock-M looks a lot like her mama Starlit and siblings and even her uncle so when I see them it is like a part of her is still in reach

Thank you all for the support.
Hug all your fur and feathered babies from me

[krazy4birds]

Sock-M was a gorgeous and very well taken care of little girl! By the pictures you would never guess she was going to soon be leaving. Cancer is a vicious killer that knows no stranger whether it be a human, dog, cat, bird........the list goes on and on. A very beautifull tribute to her, Therese.

Rest in peace Sock-M

[PatchO'Pits]

Sock-M was a gorgeous and very well taken care of little girl! By the pictures you would never guess she was going to soon be leaving. Cancer is a vicious killer that knows no stranger whether it be a human, dog, cat, bird........the list goes on and on. A very beautifull tribute to her, Therese.

Rest in peace Sock-M

Thank you!!!!!

Actually, all but one of those was taken in her last few weeks w/ me. The one of her playing tug was right around her 2nd b-day so also not very long ago. It was always so hard to get picts and I was usually so busy playing with her I never really took the time before that.... I have a lot of pictures but not enough.


I hate cancer . I lost my mom and other close relatives and friends to it as well. It stinks. I hope someday they find a cure so the suffering ends

[RachelLynn]

I am soo sorry for your loss. :( I am crying over here too. It is never easy to lose a family member but I do believe we will see them again some day. I found this and thought it was nice...
http://www.wtv-zone.com/nywoman/PAGES/page13.html

[PatchO'Pits]

I am soo sorry for your loss. :( I am crying over here too. It is never easy to lose a family member but I do believe we will see them again some day. I found this and thought it was nice...
http://www.wtv-zone.com/nywoman/PAGES/page13.html


Than ks you for the kind words and for that link. It made me cry and Sock-M's bother Samurai almost knocked me on the floor jumping and giving me kisses to make me stop. He is so much like her

Sock-M loved kids so the poem also made me happy. The last picture I have her of is the day she died and it is with a little 2 year old boy who came to visit her w/ his mom since he hadn't seen her on her walks for awhile. I'll post it eventually. It is sad for me since it is her last one and last day

[Pepsidoodle]

Oh Therese, I am so sad for you. I didn't think she would leave you so quickly. I am so deeply sorry. She's a beautiful girl. And what wonderful pictures of you two. I have had such terribble grief myself that I can tell you your dreams will help you through as it has me. She will always be with you. You loved her so much. Please take care and rest. Laura

[PatchO'Pits]

Oh Therese, I am so sad for you. I didn't think she would leave you so quickly. I am so deeply sorry. She's a beautiful girl. And what wonderful pictures of you two. I have had such terribble grief myself that I can tell you your dreams will help you through as it has me. She will always be with you. You loved her so much. Please take care and rest. Laura


Thanks.
I woke up last night out of nowhere frantic and searching then realized she wasn't there

It is really so hard, but I'm trying

[Pepsidoodle]

Gosh, I feel for you. Pictures help me. I cry but feel better for a little bit. It seems everything I do reminds me. I did wake up the other day and felt the pain wane a little like maybe they (Pepe and Mellie) were finally at peace. My family thought I should have been sedated at first. I wasn't but they were right. Maybe you could go to the doctor and see what they say if you feel it will help you. I don't think that it is wrong to do that. My sister who is a psychotherapist told me to immediately get another focus, take a class or whatever. I am rambling-sorry. Just keep remembering Sock-M is no longer in pain and you did so much to help her. And, you are not alone, she will always be with you.:) Big hugs Laura

[PatchO'Pits]

So sorry that you are feeling this pain too. Hopefully all are loved ones who passed are together and happy watching over us now as we took care of them

[ferJenna]

That was... Amazing. She is truly beautiful!

[Catty]

What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful dog, I wish that I had the skills to write in such a way.

As mentioned elsewhere, I lost my cat Misty a few days ago, coincidentally on the same day as you lost Sock-M. Misty also died earlier than she should have: she was 11 years old and her kidneys unfortunately failed so she had to be put to sleep.

It just doesn't seem fair when the animal dies before it has reached 'old' age, all those opportunities missed and lost companionship, but you had even less time with Sock-M than I had with Misty and even 11 years with her simply wasn't enough. An eternity wouldn't be enough ........

Please excuse my clumsy words but a combination of lingering grief and poor literary skills prevents me from writing things as I truly feel them.

My deepest and heartfelt sympathies. Perhaps Sock-M and Misty are enjoying each others' company even now .........

[PatchO'Pits]

What a beautiful tribute to a beautiful dog, I wish that I had the skills to write in such a way.

As mentioned elsewhere, I lost my cat Misty a few days ago, coincidentally on the same day as you lost Sock-M. Misty also died earlier than she should have: she was 11 years old and her kidneys unfortunately failed so she had to be put to sleep.

It just doesn't seem fair when the animal dies before it has reached 'old' age, all those opportunities missed and lost companionship, but you had even less time with Sock-M than I had with Misty and even 11 years with her simply wasn't enough. An eternity wouldn't be enough ........

Please excuse my clumsy words but a combination of lingering grief and poor literary skills prevents me from writing things as I truly feel them.

My deepest and heartfelt sympathies. Perhaps Sock-M and Misty are enjoying each others' company even now .........


I'm so so sorry about you losing Misty. I'm sure Sock-M misses her play mate my cat Babie Girl and is keeping Misty company

I agree it isn't fair. There is so much more I wanted to type and more so say to her in person... I know I'll have that chance again someday

Your wording shows your love and I'm sure Misty felt that from your every word to her

I am so sorry that she was taken from you too. Both so young to be given angels wings, Both too young to leave , but we were both blessed to have them as long as we did in our lives and they still live in out hearts

Big hugs for you and prayers that you heal

Hang in there I know how hard it is as I am still crying and don't feel it will ever stop at this point

[Catty]

Heartfelt thanks for your kind words Therese. You put a lump in my throat.

The crying will ease - everyone is different and we all heal at different rates. I now feel an almost constant sense of sadness and loss but I'm sure that will ease too.

One thing is certain - as long as my brain is working correctly I will NEVER forget Misty as long as I live. She's staring at me from a number of photos in various rooms and, call it imagination, confusion or wishful thinking, but I could swear I've heard the jingling of her ID tags at least twice (although that may have been her sister or one of our dogs). Still, you never know .......

[SPCAEmployee]

I am so sorry for your loss. Such a young girl with so much accomplished!!! She is a beautiful APBT. Truly the resemblence of the breed. Sorry again for your loss, and remember there are always people here if you need to talk!!!

[PatchO'Pits]

It is still so hard without her being here. I miss my Sock-M:(

[rstowe]

I know it is still hard. It's been over a year since we lost our Rottie so I know exactly what you are going through.

Wishing you the best Therese.

[dlaura]

Sending you a big cyber {{{{{{{HUG AND ANOTHER AND ANOTHER}}}}}} I was just looking at her pictures again and remembering her -- she sure was/is beautiful. She still "is" because she is in your heart and mind - she will always be with you there. So sorry for her loss.

[NewfieGrl]

It is so hard to lose one of our special pets. No amount of time with them is ever enough.
Michele
owned by 2 Newfies, a cocker spaniel and 3 cats.

[PatchO'Pits]

Thanks for thinking of her with me :( :( :(