i miss you so much pip

[linda green]

i lost my beautiful little dog 18wks ago and i feel as though my heart is broken.i had the vet come out to let him go to sleep as he had a heart condition which was keeping him going as long as he had his tablets everyday,he still had quality of life except he couldnt go for walks,but he was only small and i have a garden so he didnt need the excersice.a week before he died he passed blood so i took him to the vet who gave him antibiotics and said it could be something he ate,but a few days later he stopped eating his favourite chicken which was the only food i could disguise all his tablets in so i knew that without his tablets he was going to start suffering within a matter of days.it was then i decided i had to let him go as he was very down in his mood as well,it was the hardest decision i have ever had to make in my life.the way he died has stuck in my mind every minute of everyday.he was a little yorkie and i cuddled him for the last seconds of his life,but when the vet put the injection in his tiny leg the last thing he did was cry in pain and that is how i keep picturing him as he died and it is tearing me apart and stopping me thinking of all the love and happiness he gave me in the 10yrs i was lucky enough to have him in my life.as he died a very big part of me died with him.i feel guilty for letting him go and for the pain the vet caused him in his last seconds of life.i miss him so very much it hurts.i still have his son and daughter and there mum but nothing could ever replace him as he was so precious to me.i talk to his photos and ashes everyday.the only thing that is keeping me going is the fact that one day i will be with him again,and because of my other 3 dogs.i love and miss you so much pip,godbless. mum xxxx happy 11th birthday on 12th oct,pip. xxxx

[Squawksx3]

In so so sorry for your loss Linda. You sound like a wonderful mom and I have no doubt he had a wonderful life full of love. I have also held two fur-kids when it was time to go to the rainbow bridge and neither of them went in pain from the injection, Im so sorry it happened that way. Please take comfort that he is now in a wonderful place and free from pain.

They're never really gone when they live forever in your heart.

[Magnum]

Linda, I am so sorry. Reading this brings back my own memories of Bu, and I know how your heart aches right now. As Jan said, please take comfort that he is in a wonderful place, Rainbow Bridge, and he will be there waiting for you. I know my Bu Bair is waiting for me to hold her in my arms again. I will always miss her, just like you will always miss Pip. Bless you for loving Pip with all your heart.

[PatchO'Pits]

I'm reading and crying . Sounds like a great dog and you did the right thing by letting him go peacefully. I'm sure he is happy and in no pain still watching over you. I hope you find peace.

[creativz]

dear helen, i broke my heart crying when i came across your message to your lovely dog ganymede.i lost one of my little dogs 18wks ago and like you he is the first thing i think of when i wake and last thing i think of before going to sleep in fact i think of him most of the day and am finding it a struggle without him in my life he was such a special little dog,he was more like a child to me than a pet,i loved him as much as i love my 5 children.people say i am lucky having 3 other dogs and i no its hard for them to understand when they havent loved an animal but they dont realise you cant replace him with another dog,he was my special little pip and i miss and love him so much it hurts.well i am sorry for going on,i have never done this on the site before but like i said your poem made me cry for you,for ganymede,and for my little dog and also for myself as my crying let some of my emotions out.thank you.linda greenI'm sorry. It's so difficult losing those we love the most, nothing can ever replace them and nobody can really understand such a strong personal bond. Only tragedy allows the release of love and grief never normally seen. I also have 2 cats and another dog, as much as I love them, I still wish Ganny back daily, he'll always be my little lost shadow. I really don't know how I've coped without him, he still helps me every day that's for sure. He too was my babe, so much more than 'just a dog', he was my solace - my best friend. 9 precious years of perfect pure and powerful puppy love ! I still find it very hard forcing myself to accept his loss and concentrate on the good times, the final week with Ganny was such an emotional rollercoaster, he'd seen vet twice just days before he died, was on medication but had sudden onset of rapid breathing, vet didn't think it was 'heart failure', but he collapsed and died in my arms at home on the morning of his 9th birthday, he stopped breathing instantly, there was nothing I could do to bring him back. I cradled him and rubbed him warm until my partner got home a few hours later. I'm still riddled with guilt and find myself regularly apologising to his ashes and photos, as I kiss his collar and light his candles. I'll never be the same again. :( It takes a long time to adjust to the new, allow yourself plenty of time to grieve, vent your thoughts and feelings. Keep talking to Pip, he's still listening to you and will always be there within you. Try not to feel guilty, he's among friends, restored to full health, snoozing in the sunshine with Ganny. :) They're free of pain playing with many others loved and lost, just waiting for the day we all meet up again. I really hope you regain a peaceful balance - memorials, photos and music helps a lot. Thank you so much for taking time to read my heartache. I wish I could help you more with yours. Take good care Linda, sleep well Pip.

[JustJo]

Linda,

Know that you did the right thing. Do not remember Pip's last cry...he didn't feel anything a second later. I recently lost my Mom and for the first few weeks I could not get the thought or picture of her last minutes with me out of my mind. I now know that I should not focus on that part of her passing but rather on the knowledge that she is at peace and out of pain now. Your post brought tears to my eyes because we have all suffered great loss and it is so sad to go on without our loved ones, but they would want us to go on loving, living, and experiencing joy in our lives rather than feel guilt and sadness. My heart goes out to you in your loss of Pip and know that we are all here for you.

[linda green]

i would like to say a very big thank you to all of you that sent me messages over the loss of my little pip,its lovely to know that there are such lovely understanding people like you out there.i would also like to thank you for helping me understand that the way i am grieving over pip is normal,as i was beginning to think that i wasnt normal as people i know dont grieve for pets only for humans,i know it will take a lot for me to come to terms with losing my beautiful little boy.but once again thank you all so much,god bless you.linda x

[dlaura]

Hi Linda,
I replied to you on the thread where you replied to creativz. Again I would like to offer my sympathy in your loss of Pip. Here on PL we have all at one time or another gone thru what you are suffering now. Not matter how many other pets you still have, the loss of one leaves an empty feeling. I am glad we could all be here for you so you see you are not alone in your feelings. May peace be with you.

[linda green]

i am not sure how or if i am posting my messages in the correct way[i am not very clever when it comes to computors]i only no how to do basics ie log on struggle with something and then how to log off.but i was determined yesterday to find a way to try and use this much helpful site.it is my little dogs 11th birthday next week and i would love to write a tribute to him and to be able to put a photo of him also with his tribute,is it complecated to do this?thank you so much,linda

[dlaura]

Linda,
I know that while you can post a photo on any forum it is much harder to do that then it is to post in the forum we have toward the top of the log in page. (Screen that comes up when you sign in) Gosh I can never remember the exact name, but you will know it is the picture forum because it refers to pictures in the name. When you click on that particular forum there is a "sticky" there that one of the moderators was kind enough to do for us describing how to post photos. If you have any problems please don't hesitate to Private Message one of us moderators. We would love to see a picture of Pip.

[linda green]

dear laura i have tried to put a photo of my little pip on the site but i cant manage to do it.the only way i can is by inserting it in an email,would it be possible for me to send you an email with photo enclosed and for you to put it on for me please,i am sorry for being a pain if it is something you cant do.it would mean so much to me to have his photo on as it would be his 11th birthday today.thank you, linda

[dlaura]

Morning Linda,
I sent you a private message with my email address. Looking forward to seeing a picture of Pip.

[creativz]

Hi Linda, when submitting post - if you click below on 'manage attachments' you should be able to upload photo direct from computer, as you submit your post. The [IMG] coding is also on here - so if you host photo with say 'Photobucket' for example, you can link direct. Or you could always email me, I'll sort for you ! :)

See 'The Garden Of Remembrance' (http://takingthelead.co.uk/2/Grieving/garden.htm) - it's a lovely peaceful memorial page, very easy to add tribute and photo via email by clicking on the Homepage 'contact'.

[dlaura]

Hi Linda,
I am sorry that I didn't get the picture up for you yesterday, but it must have arrived at my inbox after I had last looked for it. So I am going to try and post a picture of Linda's dear little Pip now.

http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a275/dlaura1954/Aug2002.jpg

[dlaura]

Linda Pip is beautiful! I use the present tense because all of our animals will always remain alive in our hearts.

[Magnum]

Awe, what a sweet, sweet baby. May Pip rest in peace. {{{{hugs}}}} Linda

[Pepsidoodle]

What a sweet little honey dog. My heart aches for you. Take care of yourself through this tough time. Pip is in a better place watching over you.

[creativz]

That's a great photo, lovely pose ! He's adorable, I can easily understand your grief. :( Pip and Ganny, birthday boys united - bet they're looking good together, very handsome chaps ! Hope you doing ok Linda.

[Squawksx3]

Beautiful baby!. He is an angel in every sense of the word... and shining down on you now from heaven.

Thank you Diane for posting his pic.

[Cat&Dog mom]

Linda, i'm so sorry for your loss, he will remain in your heart forever, please try not to think of his very last seconds, you had 10 wonderful years with him and i'm sure lots of memories that will make you laugh and some that will make you cry because he brought such happiness to your life. I love his picture he is a very handsome boy, thank you for sharing him with us. (((HUGS)))) My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

[ABYLOVER]

Pip is beautiful.